aimless

How much time does a person need to move on? What are your boundaries? Do you have boundaries? I’ve discovered so much about myself and life in general these last 9 months. What I’ve learned: 

  • walking away is OK and probably the best decision in most cases
  • love and trust are two completely different things but, don’t “work” without the other
  • I have HUGE trust issues
  • I have boundaries that I now realize are very clear and need to be realized and respected in all situations
  • no one has answers
  • love is NOT rational
  • I’m a determinist
  • At the moment, I am not capable of writing “happy” songs. Some people need to just accept that and let me do my thing (which I will do, regardless).
  • change is inevitable
  • love is unstoppable
  • control is an illusion
  • Sangster is me and is my creative outlet. Afton is my given name. Those two things will not be changing.
  • silence makes me uneasy
  • I will NOT be fucked with
  • In the end, I only have myself. I was born alone and will die alone. This is not a negative statement, it is fact. 
  • Happiness comes from within
  • everyone has a dark side
  • I choose to live in the light. I believe in paying it forward; karma if you will
  • if I want an opinion, I’ll ask for it
  • I am very blessed and very grateful
  • All we have is the present. There is no past, no future. We can only live in this present moment
  • We must carry on believing that there is a future and plan for it as best we can
  • integrity is being true to yourself
  • respect is being true to others 
  • insanity is repeating the same action hoping for a different result
  • my intuition is eerily unparalleled
  • I can understand it but, I don’t have to like it
  • anger is sometimes unavoidable and should be embraced in order to process
  • forgive. don’t forget.
  • the ego will never leave you. This is not a bad thing. This needs to be accepted and carefully managed
  • hubris is necessary and should only be used resourcefully
  • discretion is admirable but, candor is preferable
  • I’m a giver….probably to a fault